| This time it comes from the heart |
I feel so bad. I could not feel worse if I killed someone (well, maybe just a smidgen worse...BUT NOT MUCH!!!) He'll never know how bad I feel. He'll always think that I just tossed him aside like he didn't even matter. That is so far from the truth. I was just really, really scared and I know thats no excuse, but thats the way it was...is. I thought I would feel as if a weight had been lifted after it was overwith, but I feel worse than before. Something I didn't think was possible until now. I am a horrible person. I am so sorry. If you ever read this you have to know that I am so, so, SO sorry. I know that doesn't mean much. Maybe in years to come we'll meet again and we will smile and exchange pleasantries and all will be forgiven. Maybe even go have a coffee and reminisce (though I doubt it). On the other hand, maybe we'll never meet again (sadly, the most likely scenario). Perhaps our memory of each other will fade and the summer/fall of 2006 will be nothing but a distant haze of opportunities that will have long since stopped knocking. I am sorry. I wish you nothing but happiness and succsess. You will always be in my heart.
Love, Sarah |
