| PG plays Jenga with her brain. |
I'm tired, but aren't I always? I can't keep anything straight anymore. Dates, times, stories, everything is getting all jumbled up and every detail is starting to bleed into the next. I suppose that thats what happens when you try to cram to much into your head at once and you don't give it time to rest. Well, I have news for you brain, there isn't time to rest! Rest and sleep say goodbye to those things, cause they're gone and I don't know when or if they'll ever be back. Even the weekends - my sacred two days of sanctuairy from the hellish schedule and non-stop stress of school, extra-curriculars and a social life - have become filled with early morning phone calls, late-night parties, copious amounts of homework and distractions from a life that I want, no NEED to keep seperate. Neither weekdays nor weekends can provide the rest, the peace, the tranquility that I am in such sorry need of. I sometimes wonder why we all feel the need to fill our lives with things. I sometimes think that I would be perfectly content to just sit at home and sleep and do nothing for the rest of my life. I know that's not true, though. I would feel useless and bored after a while. I do need things in my life, but it is getting to the point where the stress is overwhelming. I want to keep busy, but I also want to be able to sleep and maybe even eat an actual meal now and then. Why does it have to be one extreme or the other? I wish I could have a briskly-paced life and still have room for sleeping, eating and relaxing in general. I don't know if that can ever happen for me. I hope it can. For now, though, I'll settle for one good-night's sleep, but even that seems a bit far-fetched.
Do I jump on the bed when you're trying to do your job? ~PenguinGirl plays Jenga with her brain. |
