| PG is stressed to the nines |
Nothing interesting going on in my life, I have about 234623647863478 rehearsals, I constantly find myself needing to be in two places at once. I'm tired and way behind. That week i took off did so much damage. It was like all my teachers were like, "Hey, Sarah's away, lets teach the most essential and difficult concepts and then assign projects that are due to days after she gets back! Won't that be a hoot!!". No, no its not a HOOT. I do not understand ANYTHING that we're doing in Physics. I used to be so good, but I missed a lot and the teacher hasn't been there for about two weeks, so there is no one to ask about things that i don't understand. We have our final unit test on Monday and I am going to fail. People hear me say that and go, "Bullshit, Sarah!! You're so smart, you'll probably get 95%". No, if things continue the way they are going, I will be lucky to get a 60%. Then theres to December exams...FUCK. I am going to do so poorly. I am trying very hard to catch up, but it just isn't working. Dad is so proud of his smart little girl that I am scared that if i tell him I'm having trouble, he'll be dissapointed in me. I am getting so frustrated and stressed out with all my schoolwork and rehearsals that as soon as I get home every night I out down my backpack, take out my homework and just cry and cry until theres nothing left. Whenever anybody asks me to do something extra I break down. It is gettin ridiculous. There is so much pressure. I cannot handle anything else. I need a vacation, some time off, even a long weekend. I just need some time to get caught up, I have no time. "Maybe you shouldn't be on diaryland, then." Shutup, this is my only outlet that I have anymore. I can't talk to anyone about it, so i talk to the computer screen in the hopes that someone will read it and save me. I just wish that I could stop the world for a couple hours, so that I could get everything done, but I can't.
Its not what you're sure of, it's what you don't know. ~PenguinGirl is stressed to the nines |
