| PG gets her self-deprication on |
Beauty comes from the inside...Bullshit. I've never heard a guy say, "Wow, check out the inner beauty on that chick!" Not so much. Stupid self-esteem, or lack there of. I wish I was skinny like everyone else. I wish I was pretty like everyone else. I wish I was wanted like everyone else. I wish I was confident like everyone else. I wish I was sexy like everyone else. Do you know what I sometimes think about...I think that maybe I should develop an eating disorder. I won't, so don't everyone give me a lecture. I just want to be...desired. I know people say that I should just love myself for who I am, but you what, its easy to say that when you're beautiful and thin and wanted, but when you have to look into the mirror everyday and see me, it gets really difficult to love what you see there. The truth is its not just the way I look, I hate the person I am. I pretend that I'm someone else, I pretend that I'm okay with myself, but I'm really not. I just want to be pretty. Everyone else gets to be pretty. Everyone else gets to have a boyfriend. Even girls who aren't that pretty or funny or...anything. So, why do they get to be happy and not me? At the risk of sounding bratty; It's not fair. Ugh. I have to stop being so emo...its unbecoming.
Everybody loves a winner, so nobody loved me. Lady peaceful, lady happy, thats what I long to be. ~PenguinGirl gets her self-deprication on |
